Thursday, January 24, 2013

True Peace

Somehow, I expected this day to come. She said vague things I could not figure out, when I asked her repeatedly what she wished to say, she wailed in agony. Not from physical pain, but from the incapability to find the words in her head. I started to play a guessing game with her.

"From the house..."
"In your room?"
"Something or someone?"
"Mmm... That thing..."
"A book?"
"CD? Radio? Blanket?"
"You want me to ask PakPak to bring your blanket?"
"No need..."
"CD and radio, you want?"
"What else do you need?"
"You all to... but all of you cannot..."
"What do you want us to do?"
"Do you want a pastor?"
"Which pastor do you want to see?"
"Rose, Christine or...?"

The six hours I had spent on her bedside, I could only understand that she wants these three things. I could imagine how irritated she could get if nobody understood or try to guess what she wants. But I could tell, that she was afraid and worried, for mediocre things. Cats, money and diploma which is the documents that the commissioner for oaths was supposed to sign. I read her bible verses to calm her down, but I kept stumbling onto more and more morbid verses, pausing and skipping taboo words constantly. She waved her hand at me to stop and I did, giving my hand for her to clench onto. Her grip has energy, but I can feel her bones. Her breath was stale, her lips was dry and she said "Heaven". What can one possibly think of when she is in the final stage of cancer?

And when I came home from the hospital, I saw this verse.


I know I do not understand how it feels to be sprawled helpless on the ward bed with a terminal illness, however I believe if we have faith in the Lord, peace will follow. I did not pray for a miracle to happen, I just prayed for your pain to stop.

Wednesday, January 16, 2013

Ragnorak Online 2

In all my life I have never considered myself a gamer because:

1. I usually prefer watching people play.
2. Sometimes I over stress myself in games.
3. I've never played online games before.

All of a sudden I got hooked on the new online game of Ragnorak II: Legend of the Second.

Of course when I had never truly experience online gaming before, I find this like a breath of fresh air. Interacting with friends I know in real life and the impromptu party with strangers to raid dungeons.
It's extremely addictive!

With this post, comes a very raw review on what I generally think about this game. Not about other online games. Just this one. So haters gonna hate, potatoes gonna potate yeah?

Pro's: 3D online gaming experience. Of course it's not 3D like Final Fantasy, the server will definitely crash and burn from the high definition stress. Unlike the first RO game which I saw many years back and chibi and pixelated, kind of like Maple story. Good place to practice strategy and communication. You can also play this at your own pace. Got work no problem, you don't have a time limit. Your food won't get burned in that virtual oven. That's the good thing about this time flexibility.

Con's: Too much bugs and lags especially in the dungeon. Extremely frequent maintenance, which is understandable but not when you have to keep extending the maintenance time okay? xD Another severe problem with this game is the language. I'm not talking about the censorship of cusses like **** or ****. It's the grammatical inaccuracy and sometimes even the choice of vocabulary is totally off the track. So if RO2 maintenance team happens to read this, please hire a better translator/ copy writer or something. 

At the moment I'm a level 31 Ranger and level 36 Artisan. Which means I can walk around invisible, stalk other players and summon falcons xD haha!